10:30pm. I'm home. After my 3rd date with Trucker Joe. And I'm thinking. What. The. Fuck. Get some water. Think. Sit on bed. Think. I should've asked. Chicken. Chicken. Chicken. What. The. Fuck. I'll just ask now. now. now. Start to text. Delete text. Fuck. Is this like Sex and the City with Carrie and Aiden and "Are We Sluts?" Start to text. I mean this just doesn't make sense. It HAS been 3 dates. And we all know I'm the hottest thing next to the stove top I just told you was hot don`t touch it...I JUST told you it was hot. But then again. It has ONLY been 3 dates. Maybe he's just a gentleman. Put Phone Down! Sit on bed. Think. Fidget. Fidget. FUCK!!! Okay. Fuck this noise. He's not my soulmate. Worst that can happen is he either says, no I'm not attracted or he is but thinks I'm retarded for asking. Best case scenario. I find out what the fuck is up. And we all know. I like to be in the know. Just Sayin'. So I text. Letter for letter. Here is exactly how lame I am (please try not mock me too much in the comments.)
Me: U still up?
Him: Yup I am...what's up?
Me: I probably should've said something earlier tonight but well lol I'm shy but I have to ask. are you attracted to me?
Him: Ya I am...why are you asking?
Me: Um...well (lol now I feel stupid) I guess just cause...um...u haven't made any moves...not that there's anything wrong with that but also when we first met u kinda also talked about looking for friends so I guess I was just a bit uncertain
Him: It's not that I don't want to...I just like you a lot (probably too much lol) but I just don't have committment in me right now and if things were to happen you might end up not liking me.
Detour.
So I know this sounds a bit weird but here's some missing info. On our first date he asked me if I needed exclusivity in someone I was dating? And I was like no. (funny sidebar: I relayed this quesstion to my mother and before I could even get my answer out, she was all like, of course not lol and her and my dad have been together for 40 years. Just Sayin'.) But seriously I was like, no. Some chick asks you out on Friday night. You go ahead and take that date. Go have some fun. Now. I don't need to know about it. You just go ahead and keep that info to yourself. And I most certainly won't ask. I mean Christ. I get it. You were married for 10 years-ish. And not great 10 years. And then the first chick you date is the same age (and aka ready for babies and marriage etc. like right now!. The chick he dated right after his divorce (and before me obviously) was planning their future after only two months. And when he called it quits. She was all like "well you shouldn't have slept with me blah blah blah". So I get it. And the thing is. I'm not looking for committment either.
Him: U still talking to me???
Me: lol sorry - world's slowest texter here.
Me: Hmm so is it just a case of you not wanting me to get hurt and/or get pissed and stop talking to you?
Him: I don't want either of those to happen
Me: Well neither thing is likely to happen because
a. I'm a grown up and can look out for myself
b. my heart is not aiming at committment
c. I know where you are committment wise
d. I'm awesome!
Him: You ARE awesome! lol
Him: Believe me there are things I would like to do to you I mean with you :)
And that's where I'm going to be stop the exact relay of our texting. Because it gets a little grown up. Okay well not that grown up. But considering we haven't even held hands. It was grown up for us. And honestly it's just private and I don't want to share it. lol. love ya though. But I will say. It is clear. He's attracted to me. No doubt. He has plans to be out of town for the (BC) long weekend. Actually from Thursday till Tuesday morning.
And then he asks. Me over for dinner. On Tuesday night. A whole week away. He'll cook me dinner. At his place. I'll get to see his digs. He'll be putting in effort. We'll have alone time. Fuck this is working out. Top Notch. Top. Fucking. Notch. OMG I'm nervous already. And inCREDibly excited!
Go you for having the guts to ask!! Now you know a) he is definitely attracted to you
ReplyDeleteb) he is sensitive to your feelings
c) he wants to do possibly naughty things to you
So I am excited for you dinner date on Tuesday!!
Marry this man!
ReplyDeletei love this :-)
ReplyDeletecan't wait to hear about the date!
xxoo
so can the post on THAT date be pretty graphic? Cause y'know, SOME of us are totally living vicariously through you. HAHA! :)
ReplyDeleteAbsolutely love it! Admittedly I was a bit freaked out when he asked, on the first date, if you need exclusivity in someone you were dating BUT when I read on and saw that you weren't looking for any commitment yourself - was like, ohhhh okay.
ReplyDeleteSo he likes you. And he wants to do things to (I mean with) you. Sounds all good to me girlie.
Looking forward to date four!
The more I read your posts, the more I believe that we would be quite awesome friends. Good job for asking and cheers to some R (or at least PG 13) rated stuff at his place :).
ReplyDeleteWoot woot! Hurry up Tuesday!
ReplyDeletesingleinmy30s: I can't wait to tell you all about it!!
ReplyDelete"Just Sayin.....": LOL...you want me to marry him?...wasn't I just promising him I was all good for not needing exclusivity :P (I get the sentiment though :P)
LuckyGirl: Aww...I'm literally bursting to tell you guys all about it!
Zarah: I hereby, do solemnly swear...the post about the date will include graphic depictions of the events for you and others to live vicariously through :) Heart You
thesinglefilez: Yeah let's just hope I'm not all talk...so far so good on the not needing/wanting/even being interested in committment thing
Jessica: Yes. I'm certain. We. Would be besties. No Question. Seriously. No question. :)
Diana: LOL...well technically Tuesday already happened...but hurry up to me being up to date on blog postings and posting about Tuesday :)